Per aspera...

Lately
I came to recognize
that what I had considered a blessing:
to find the good in the bad,
to find the beauty in small things,
could be
a curse.

Lately
I came to recognize
that this ability
to think positive,
to use my phantasy,
could bar me from seing
that there are things
and persons
who bother, anger, agonize
and paralyze me.
That they keep me
from being what I am
and what I want.

Just lately
I came to recognize
how important it is
to search
and find
my self.